1st Day Sober...there was a time when I never even thought that was possible.
So. I'm really hoping this is finally it. The day I become sober. Lord knows it's been years in the making.
I've just remembered its the summer solstice today. Maybe that means that the universe will be on my side! Here's hoping. The longest day of light and a good day for living life without alcohol.
I find myself here after following a path which I know a lot of other sober bloggers have travelled down. Girl drinks wine..girl drinks too much wine...girl can't stop thinking about wine...girl is controlled by wine and becomes a mess...girl is miserable and decides to stop.
I've spent the last week or so devouring books about how to become sober, or memoirs written by successful non drinkers. I have felt ready for a few days but the temptation caught me unawares yesterday and I bought some wine. Drank and woke up this morning with the sensation that there were major road works going on in my head..the road was closed and the pneumatic drill was hard at work bashing up my thoughts. Not again. But this time the hangover was worse...almost like my body was saying 'That's it. This is the last one, and I'm going to make it a doozer'.
So here we are. I am writing this in the hope that I will be able to give support to others who are starting out on their journey like me, and that writing my thoughts down will be somehow cathartic and help me on my mission.
At times I have felt so addicted to wine that I didn't even think I would be able to stay sober for one day. I am happy today to be sober. Good luck to everyone else on this journey.
I've just remembered its the summer solstice today. Maybe that means that the universe will be on my side! Here's hoping. The longest day of light and a good day for living life without alcohol.
I find myself here after following a path which I know a lot of other sober bloggers have travelled down. Girl drinks wine..girl drinks too much wine...girl can't stop thinking about wine...girl is controlled by wine and becomes a mess...girl is miserable and decides to stop.
I've spent the last week or so devouring books about how to become sober, or memoirs written by successful non drinkers. I have felt ready for a few days but the temptation caught me unawares yesterday and I bought some wine. Drank and woke up this morning with the sensation that there were major road works going on in my head..the road was closed and the pneumatic drill was hard at work bashing up my thoughts. Not again. But this time the hangover was worse...almost like my body was saying 'That's it. This is the last one, and I'm going to make it a doozer'.
So here we are. I am writing this in the hope that I will be able to give support to others who are starting out on their journey like me, and that writing my thoughts down will be somehow cathartic and help me on my mission.
At times I have felt so addicted to wine that I didn't even think I would be able to stay sober for one day. I am happy today to be sober. Good luck to everyone else on this journey.
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