Okay so Day 3..alcohol free. Last night I went out to social function. It was on a flotilla ...and it was a floating bar. I knew weeks ago that I didn't want to drink on this night out so I told my boyfriend that I would drive a few days before to help me not back out mentally. Then, when an email came out prior to the event saying that the host had booked everyone some alcohol on arrival, I emailed back and said that I didn't want one. That took some doing...I had the thoughts of..'maybe I could have just one? What will people think of me if I'm the only one not drinking? It's a shame to go there and not enjoy a drink' but then I remembered that I had been saying to myself for weeks that I did not want to drink at this event, and I had been visualising myself sober on the evening. I had a word with myself and inside I felt like I was going to let myself down if I caved in and had a drink. So I typed out the response saying 'not for me thanks!' and whi
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So. I'm really hoping this is finally it. The day I become sober. Lord knows it's been years in the making. I've just remembered its the summer solstice today. Maybe that means that the universe will be on my side! Here's hoping. The longest day of light and a good day for living life without alcohol. I find myself here after following a path which I know a lot of other sober bloggers have travelled down. Girl drinks wine..girl drinks too much wine...girl can't stop thinking about wine...girl is controlled by wine and becomes a mess...girl is miserable and decides to stop. I've spent the last week or so devouring books about how to become sober, or memoirs written by successful non drinkers. I have felt ready for a few days but the temptation caught me unawares yesterday and I bought some wine. Drank and woke up this morning with the sensation that there were major road works going on in my head..the road was closed and the pneumatic drill was hard at work ba